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Tuesday, September 06, 2005

OBS was just over! Though it wasn't as physically and mentally challenging as previous camps, but it was still fun! Well, okay la. At least the instructors were cool and friendly but weird. cause not used to instructors not scolding and being harsh on participants but advising and making life easy for us. OHWELL.

Anyway, after OBS, had a nice sleep haha. AND CAMP 3ers BEWARE. 10 rounds.

Okay enough of OBS.

Slacked throughout today morning and went to collect IC and had interview with 2 EXTREMELY helpful and friendly social workers from TTSH thereafter. The interview went on real great and i felt that we got more than we expected. Well, HERE"S A BIG THANKYOU IF YOU"RE READING MY BLOG MRS LEE AND MS TAN! =) (okay what are the odds. But thanks anyway lol.)

Throughout the interview, we touched alot on the moral values of life and so on. Though 'moral values in life' doesn't really sound that great and really just a little sympathetic phrase to use, the things that she said made me realise that these issues really have a great bearing over humanity and gives me no reason to go agst humanity for 1.5 credits. It's cause life really is precious and there's no reason to shorten it just to ease a burden that should never be there if selfishness was replaced by some morality and gratitude.

ANDDDDD. After going through the interview and the interaction with the two social workers, social worker has just replaced opthlamologist as job no. 1. Comparing these 2, the basic principle is still to heal and care for ppl- Opthmologist to help regain people's sight and social worker to understand and counsel and give proper care to the traumatised and depressed patients. honestly, one of the reasons i wanted to be an opthlamologist is because its a higher classed profession and it pays well.

Though eyes are my interest, I don't really have a burning passion for it to be truthful. I'm not a practical person, but one thats rather nosey and wants to know and help others if possible. Though a social worker does not get as much pay as an eye surgeon, but life is not about good grades, good pay, good food, good materialistic lives and a splendid bungalow to retire with. Life is about pursuing your passion, doing what you really wanna do and not be bounded by mundane and unmeaningful standards set by others who are different from you. Money isnt everything. I've never entertained the idea of nosing and helping others for a living but its really a perfect match to what i'm good at.

Yepp. SOCIAL WORKER!!! =) So hyped up. =D

After that interview, i took the train from novena back to lakeside. Throughout the journey, i had 933 on. 闲歌记忆 was on and there was this letter about a guy named Stan who had this 7-year relationship with his girlfriend which started during their uni days. Before their 7th anniversary, everything was great and love-filled. But on his 7th year, his company decided to send him to England for a 1 year course. It's a good thing isnt it? Well his girlfriend cried. Said that she was scared to lose him. 1 year was a really long time. That guy didnt know what to do la. So he talked to his friends and they said she was just insecure and recommended that he propose to her since he loved her so much and it was already 7 years and that would give her assurance. She accepted la. But3 months after he went for the course, his sister called and said that she bumped into his gf in the mall but she pretended that she didnt see her and was with this guy other guy. He did not believe and tried to contact her. Cant get thru la. Den a few days later and e-mail was sent. Saying that she had a change of heart and was really happy with that guy. Said she was a woman who needed someone whom she could cling to and lie back on every single time. Ended the brief mail with a 我们分手吧. He was devastated la. Very sudden. And he could not even get a chance to salvage that relationship. He still loved her after that. But all she wanted was her to be happy.

Putting myself in his shoes.

Some parts sound very unfair. But very real. They sound very wrong. But very familiar.

I know i've been unfair and i know i've done you wrong. But i'm really sorry for not fulfilling the promises and thank you for all the wonderful memories. You've been a wonderful chapter in my life but some things really won't work out.

Its been a long entry..

Sincerely hope that you can and will move on in life, good luck and best wishes and may we still be friends..

alonso curledin a brilliantbender 9:14 PM.